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Newest Obsessions

So as I have been shopping for everyone for Christmas I have come across a few things I WANT and a few things I want to share because they are awesome!

THe giving keys is officially the best thing I've heard of in a while. You get a key and give it to someone either on a necklace, bracelet, ring, whatever, then once they either "live that word" or find someone else who needs it they pass it along. I love it, but I feel like it would take a lot for me to give it up.

Just read it and you'll get it

I bought this for my mom when she was sick. And by bought this, I had one sent to her and I donated money so one could be sent to someone else too. It sends a nice package to women fighting cancer to help them still feel pretty. and they get awesome pink boxing gloves too! Look into it and do it if you know someone who could use it.

I have to admit, I'm obsessed with subscription boxes. I have nev…

This is why...

Monday Morning wake up at 1am to a crying baby.  Doesn't need food, doesn't need changed, just needs his momma to hold him while he falls back asleep.

2am back in bed to wait for the 5am wake up from big girl who is awake and doesn't want to be alone.

6am starts the day with showers, breakfast snacks and out the door to get to daycare and back for the 8am work day.

Workdays consist of inconsistent meetings and deadlines and sporatic phone calls that make "lunch gym time" impossible.

5pm workday over and time to make dinner.  As the children get home, 545pm starts crazy dinner time or really just individual food fights between my children and the floor.

630pm starts bathtime and bedtime routines. Baby boy goes down around 730 after his bottle and big girl goes to bed around 8pm.

9pm regularly consists of a wail from big girls room because she needs 1 of 4 things:

needs to go potty even though she went before bed
needs water like she hasn't had a drink in weeks

Picture Haul

Last weekend we babysat my nieces for the whole weekend.  It was crazy but it was tons o fun.

Happy Happy Joy Joy

This weekend I am having my nieces over for the WHOLE WEEKEND! I'm so excited, but not as excited as my kids are going to be, lol.

DH and I went to the store and pretty much bought out the snack aisle.  I thought to myself, they are gonna LOVE coming to Aunt Tracey's house, then I thought, wait I gotta give this junk food to my kids too!  Hence the phrase YOLO! (you only live once).

We are gonna watch movies and stay up late and bake pies and eat pizza and everything is just going to run perfectly smooth............RIGHT???

Fortunately I'm finally getting over this cold that has been lingering around the house.  I think the chicken noodle soup my sister made me definitely helped

Doesn't it look yummy?

We also celebrated our 5 YEAR ANNIVERSARY! Whoa. It's funny to think about it like that, because really DH and I have been together for about 13 years now.  Since I was 18 and a freshman in college (man I miss those days).  Life with DH isn't always 100% roses and…

Life Goes On

This was the last pic I have of us.....when we found out the cancer had grown and spread. I laid with you in your chemo chair while you kept on fighting (and tickling my head). - You were the best!

My mom died.

My mom died 33 days ago.  She was 51.  Everyone reading this already knows this. (probably)

If it was a little while between blog posts I would get a simple two word email....."Update please"

I don't get those emails anymore.

If there was a dawn of a new day I would get a phone call "Just calling to chat"

I don't get those phone calls anymore.

It is so easy to cry.  So easy to be sad. It's so easy to wish this on someone else. and I do....all three....all the time. Sorry but not sorry.

95% of the time, I think I'm doing pretty darn good.  When my daughter mentions Grammy I don't even cry.  I just remind her that she is in heaven and Emma replies "Oh Heaben" and we continue on with our day.

As I write this, off the top of my head…

Dear Matthew.....

Dear Matthew,

My little baby boy.  The apple of your father's eye and one of the holders of my heart. I have never met a happier baby than you. A morning is not complete without a little extra snuggle and I know I can always get a little extra sleep if I bring you into bed with me and hold you close as your close your eyes in pure bliss. I have a love/hate relationship with the term "Momma's Boy" but if there ever was one, I'd say it was you. 

Your birth-day was quite a bit different from your sister's as we knew exactly when and how you would be meeting us.  That was about all we could predict as the nurses laughed when I said you would probably be 10 lbs. Even then you didn't want to leave your momma and they had to vacuum you out during the c-section. Your arrival certainly came with lots of excitement and drama as your blood counts were low, but a little time with Mommy and Daddy and everything evened out and you were just fine.

You loved to be in my arm…

I take less Pictures Now

I take less pictures now because I like to be in the moment.  Sometimes when my children are doing something cute DH or someone will say, take a pic quick!

It is always nice to have pictures of good times, but I'll take staying in that memory right now instead of taking myself out of it for the picture.

There is give and take :)


She actually doing quite well.  She doesn't many accidents at home or at school for that matter and she even wakes up with a dry pull-up most of the time.  The Caveat to that means she wakes up sometimes once or twice because she has to go potty, but I guess I can't get too mad............


LAST NIGHT, when she screams at 5am she has to go potty and wakes up my other child, than both are just UP! AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!  Oh yeah, extra fun stuff is when this happens when DH is AWAY ON BUSINESS!!!!!!!! F - M - L

Other Big news - Matthew is now eating the menu at school!!!! Bottles on the…

These Days

These days I spill coffee on myself (just now)

These days I look forward to vacation everyday :)

These days work is busy for me and DH and I don't know how to get everything done.

These days I love to hang out with my parents and my family.

These days I still try to appreciate how wonderful my life is, because it is pretty great.

These days I try every day to be more relaxed. I'm getting there :)
These days I think I'm going to start working out regularly really really soon.
These days I miss playing field hockey!
These days I am realizing how my children are my world and 90% of the reason my world is so wonderful......DH gets some credit too!
These days I don't want my babies to grow up but reasoning would be a fun little thing for Emma to give a try :)
These days are so precious and fun.
These days Matthew started "run crawling" and pulling himself up and working on perfect little man.
These days Emma is just the cutest spiciest little lady. …

9 month baby boy

Age: 9 months Weight & Height: 25 lbs.  - 31 inches. 99th percentiles  Things I enjoy: Crawling and pulling myself up to a standing position.  Skills I've mastered: I am really good at eating baby food and sitting up on my own!!! Looking forward to:  Saying a word or two and walking :) Tough Times: I'm still not sleeping through the night every night.  It's tough because Emma was sucking her thumb and self soothing at this point and I just can't figure out my thumb and sometimes Mr. Binks falls out and I can't find him. I do love mommy's cuddles too so I like to ask her for some in the middle of the night.  Exciting Events: I got to spend the night at Aunt Brookie's without Emma which was so fun because I got all the attention.  I also love pulling myself up on everything! Looking forward to: The BEACH! 1 month and I'll finally see what everyone keeps yapping about!!!

EMMA'S 9 month update Age: 9 months and 3 weeks (A little late!) Weight & Height: 1…