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Monday, April 17, 2017

Dear Emma Jean....


Dear Emma Jean,  
I'm late on your birthday love letter.   I turned around and you've turned into this beautiful crazy little lady.
4! FOUR!!!! I'm already dreading next year when Kindergarten is right around the corner. Looking back to where you were at least year, I can say you are 100% fully potty trained. There was a time I thought that was impossible, but I blinked and it happened. 
I think the most exciting thing is YOU STOPPED SUCKING YOUR THUMB. I'm not sure when, I'm not sure how and I have no idea why, but YOU DID IT! 
You are so amazing. You LOVE to sing at the top of your lungs and you still love to dance and show off your ballet moves. Fortunately you now have a little boy that is obsessed with everything you do and wants to be just like you. Speaking of your little brother, you are a wonderful big sister (most of the time). You make sure no one is too hard on him and you are the only one allowed to make him cry ;)
Your favorite food is STILL peanut butter and jelly, but you also love fruit. Mango and raspberries seem to be your favorite at the moment, but you really do love most of them. 
You can now say the 'Glory Be' all by yourself. Actually you don't let anyone say it with you anymore and you hate to go to bed without saying your prayers or reading at least 3 books.
I hope that you know how much I love you Emma Jeanie. You are a bright light in my life and you make my heart grow with every smile.
You are a beautiful, smart, kind little girl. Please stay this sweet and innocent as long as you can. 

With all the love I can give,
Your Momma

Thursday, January 19, 2017

If I knew then what I know now............

If I knew then what I know now, I would have been way worse :)

If I knew how much kids are supposed to get in trouble and explore and take chances, I would have taken more.

I was an extremely straight edge kid. I got good grades, I was involved in everything, and I think I NEVER broke the rules.

I have no idea what I was so scared of. My sister was bad growing up (really bad) - sorry Brook ;), My brother was even worse, haha. But me, I am not sure what element was missing in my brain but I was a goody two shoes to the MAX!

In college I may have let loose a tiny bit, but still, breaking the rules was not my thing.

If I knew then, what I know now, I would realize how much of it doesn't matter and I should have relaxed.

This popped into my head because as I was sitting eating my soup for lunch, all I could think was, I better get a load of laundry in, I have to clean up the kids room, I still have to shower, I have to get the kitchen cleaned up, what should I do about dinner if I take the kids to the park. Is it too cold for that? Are they bored? and so on, and so forth.

I am always over thinking life. DH will probably be smiling and shaking his head as he reads this. I don't think I definitely have anxiety issues, but there is a pretty good chance. I am always thinking I'm not doing enough or something could be different or better. I have to check the locks in a specific order EVERY NIGHT or else I can't sleep. I don't have OCD, but WTF?

So I have a question. If you are over 40 or your kids are in school, TELL ME! What do you know that I don't. I am specifically saying I will listen and be open to all advice. I think I stress too much about the stupidest things. If you could tell your 32 year old self with a 2 and 3 year old, what would you say?

On another note, tomorrow is date night :) Heading to Wyebrook Farm for dinner and a drink. It's BYOB, which I love from time to time because you bring what you like. It's a self-sustaining farm to table type place. We've been there several times for lunch/brunch and it's never disappointed. I am quite excited for tomorrow. Special outfit and all!!!

Remember when I said Body Pump wasn't for me? Well, I'm officially hooked....UGH!!! So now it's cycle 5 days a week and pump 3 days a week. What next? YOGA? I wish (secretly).

I'm trying hard to make changes in my diet to coincide with my new love of exercise. It's going pretty well, but nothing crazy yet. I did have a ginger shot on Tuesday (loved it) and a wheatgrass shot this morning (YUCK). Eggs have become a welcome addition to my morning green juice (on the side, not in it). I even had two protein shakes one day (1 for breakfast and 1 for lunch) and I did not faint. My biggest hurdle is dessert. I gotta have my cakes/pie/pudding/whateverisonthemenu when it's available. It doesn't help that baking is my therapy. I was actually thinking about baking a 5 layer ombre cake just because they are pretty. AHHHHHHHHHHHHH, see what happens when I go down that road?

Last topic of the day - STEELERS! AFC Championship game on Sunday evening. Gonna be tough, but they've pulled through many times before!

Also looking forward to dinner with my youngest nephew on Saturday. My BIL and SIL are stopping over and a date is long overdue! Did I mention my sister in law is pregnant with twins? GIRLS! I am so freaking excited because whenever there is two, there is always one available to hold.

Well, as I see myself going more and more in different directions, I better end it for now.

Until Next Time...........






Monday, January 9, 2017

Current Happenings

Today I did my first body pump class. Needless to say I am SORE! Not as sore as I'm probably going to be tomorrow, but I could definitely feel it when I was washing my hair in the shower.

Did I love it? NO! I didn't hate it either though.  It all started in cycling class today.  My one instructor that I have on Mondays and Wednesdays always goes and she's been trying to get me to try it. So, today was the day.  In fact, I'm pretty sure everyone in cycle class decided to go together which made it way more fun for me :)

I do like the idea of body pump, but I can't say I'm sold yet.  The thing that wasn't my favorite was the fact I was pretty much just out there on my own.  I probably could have asked for help or gone closer to the front, but showcasing my shortcomings isn't my favorite thing to do. A few of my cycle peeps helped me out in the beginning, which was a huge help! When we were laying down I pretty much just had to do whatever the people next to me were doing, because I couldn't see the instructor and I'm not down with the lingo yet.  At least I could add in a few of my own breaks.

I'll go again, but probably only once a week.  On a side-note it was held in the room I used to do jazzercise with my mom many years ago.  It made me so happy to think of those memories and how ridiculous those dances were.

Cycling still holds my whole heart these days!  I'm currently obsessed with finding workout/cycling tank tops, however I can't bring myself to spend over $20 on one shirt.  Only 6 more months til my birthday, haha

What else, what else...We are heading up to Scranton this weekend for Disney on Ice! I took Emma last year and she LOVED it. I'm extremely excited to take her again and I think Matthew will like it too! It'll be nice to spend a long weekend up north and away from the everyday norms.

I just took Emma to see SING at the Movie Tavern.  I loved the movie and enjoyed the MT because we had plenty of room and she had a place to put her food and drink while we watched the movie instead of in her lap, which normally ends in a spill.





I'm hosting my first "event" for this MOM group I joined this week. I think it'll be fun and hopefully my children behave and share while they are in their own house. Most of the events are crafts for the kids....wanna know what mine is called?  COFFEE and PLAYTIME! HA! Crafts aren't my thing, but coffee I can do! Maybe I can think of something before Thursday. Here is my latest "craft" - it's called "let's wash coins"


 For the record, I did not think of this myself, I read about it. Turned into emma washing 1 quarter, then Matthew just dumped all the coins in the water and splashed around until they both just stood up and walked away soaked.








Well, Steelers are in the playoffs and just dominated the Dolphins for the Wildcard win, so I'm hoping this season continues on for a few more weeks!

Until Next time.........



Thursday, December 22, 2016

Oh....Hello

So here I am, it's 1:45pm and I'm sitting on my unmade bed finally writing a blog post after two months!  Have I ever gone this long before? Possible, but I'm too lazy to look :)

Have I told you the news? I'm a stay at home mom - OFFICIALLY. WTF!

I think I'm pretty blessed as I have a job that thinks I'm worth keeping around so technically I am still employed and I'm a "casual employee". I work when they need me/when I have time.  I love what I do and everyone I work with, so I'm pretty happy with the situation. It was kind of stressful in the beginning because I was wondering when exactly I would be having time to work, but it's going well so far!

I had these huge plans of blogging my first day as a stay at home mom. I searched and searched about women who went from working to being a SAHM and couldn't find too much.  Want to know why??? We have no time. :)

I have read so so so many articles about being a working mother and a SAHM. Both are easy, both are hard, both judge each other. Let me know what you'd like to read about and I'll send you an article. They are all out there.

Do I love this? Sometimes :) Do I hate this? Sometimes :) Am I happy I'm doing it? 95% of the time.

Here is a typical day:

(sidenote: - for those of you who don't know I have a 2 year old little boy and 3 1/2 year old little lady)

Wake up around 7am. We go downstairs and eat breakfast. I unload the dishwasher while they eat every morning and I turn on the news because I noticed that when the TV is completely off, all they do is ask for a show. When the TV is on, they eat, then go in the playroom and play together.

I have finally gotten to the point where they watch no TV (of their own) until after nap. Sometimes I'll put on a show before lunch just so I can have 5 seconds to make something in peace.

Back to the day - So hubby leaves for work around 8am. At that time I get dressed (in workout clothes) and get the kids dressed to be out the door around 9am. I do a spin class at the local YMCA every day from 930 - 1015. EVERY DAY! I need it. I LOVE IT! and it's the only place I can work out and bring my kids to be watched.

So after work out we normally have an errand or two to run. We go to Wegman's or the dry cleaners or somewhere and we get home around 11-1130am.

Then it's lunchtime. Lunch around 1130 - 12pm.  Directly after lunch is naptime. One thing I am very thankful for is both kids still nap. They don't even fight it. They ask to go night-night after they are done eating.

Naptime is normally from about 1230 - 230pm.  (my daughter is now sitting next to me watching Paw Patrol as I finish typing this - it's 1;56pm).

During naptime I shower and clean something in the house. Today it was the basement. I didn't even clean up lunch because I needed as much time as I could to clean the basement and shower before someone got up.

After naptime I have them play or watch a movie. We do storytime sometimes. I hate the winter because we are stuck inside a lot. I take them to the park if it's warm. We went to playdium in downingtown one day to get out of the house.  I recently joined a playgroup as well that has fun things for the kids.

We have played music with the local retirement home, had different play dates, went to the local My Gym. It's nice. I'm still getting to know everyone, but we're getting there.

I start to cook dinner around 4-430pm. Kids eat first and DH doesn't normally get home until 630. So I've been cooking second dinner for us to eat together when he gets home.

I struggle every day with my patience, but I have to admit... I'm learning :) I'm learning what works and what doesn't and we make progress. There are also days when I just lose it. I was dropping them off at the YMCA two Fridays ago and to make a long story short I just burst into tears when I got there.

Wow, this post is way longer than I expected, but that is what happens when you wait so long to write I guess.

I think my biggest struggles are that I feel extremely guilty if I complain. I feel like I'm being judged all the time and I feel like I'm never DONE, like the house is NEVER fully clean. The second I clean it, they destroy it. Did I ever mention I have control issues? Well, we will just have to keep working on it.

In Other News: Emma had her second ballet recital. I loved it and enjoyed the fact she barely had any of the steps down :)  Matthew is talking to where I can understand him 90% of the time and he loves to sing. It's adorable.

I miss my mom like crazy and all I want to do is ask her advice 2,493 times a day. I'm trying to allow myself to be sad more and not feel guilty about talking about being sad. Can't say it's easy, but what the heck is these days?

Christmas is in 3 DAYS!

I guess I should end it here, because I'm starting to rant and get scatter-brained and maybe I'll have something to write about later in the week.

Until next time..........