If I knew then what I know now............

If I knew then what I know now, I would have been way worse :)

If I knew how much kids are supposed to get in trouble and explore and take chances, I would have taken more.

I was an extremely straight edge kid. I got good grades, I was involved in everything, and I think I NEVER broke the rules.

I have no idea what I was so scared of. My sister was bad growing up (really bad) - sorry Brook ;), My brother was even worse, haha. But me, I am not sure what element was missing in my brain but I was a goody two shoes to the MAX!

In college I may have let loose a tiny bit, but still, breaking the rules was not my thing.

If I knew then, what I know now, I would realize how much of it doesn't matter and I should have relaxed.

This popped into my head because as I was sitting eating my soup for lunch, all I could think was, I better get a load of laundry in, I have to clean up the kids room, I still have to shower, I have to get the kitchen cleaned up, what should I do about dinner if I take the kids to the park. Is it too cold for that? Are they bored? and so on, and so forth.

I am always over thinking life. DH will probably be smiling and shaking his head as he reads this. I don't think I definitely have anxiety issues, but there is a pretty good chance. I am always thinking I'm not doing enough or something could be different or better. I have to check the locks in a specific order EVERY NIGHT or else I can't sleep. I don't have OCD, but WTF?

So I have a question. If you are over 40 or your kids are in school, TELL ME! What do you know that I don't. I am specifically saying I will listen and be open to all advice. I think I stress too much about the stupidest things. If you could tell your 32 year old self with a 2 and 3 year old, what would you say?

On another note, tomorrow is date night :) Heading to Wyebrook Farm for dinner and a drink. It's BYOB, which I love from time to time because you bring what you like. It's a self-sustaining farm to table type place. We've been there several times for lunch/brunch and it's never disappointed. I am quite excited for tomorrow. Special outfit and all!!!

Remember when I said Body Pump wasn't for me? Well, I'm officially hooked....UGH!!! So now it's cycle 5 days a week and pump 3 days a week. What next? YOGA? I wish (secretly).

I'm trying hard to make changes in my diet to coincide with my new love of exercise. It's going pretty well, but nothing crazy yet. I did have a ginger shot on Tuesday (loved it) and a wheatgrass shot this morning (YUCK). Eggs have become a welcome addition to my morning green juice (on the side, not in it). I even had two protein shakes one day (1 for breakfast and 1 for lunch) and I did not faint. My biggest hurdle is dessert. I gotta have my cakes/pie/pudding/whateverisonthemenu when it's available. It doesn't help that baking is my therapy. I was actually thinking about baking a 5 layer ombre cake just because they are pretty. AHHHHHHHHHHHHH, see what happens when I go down that road?

Last topic of the day - STEELERS! AFC Championship game on Sunday evening. Gonna be tough, but they've pulled through many times before!

Also looking forward to dinner with my youngest nephew on Saturday. My BIL and SIL are stopping over and a date is long overdue! Did I mention my sister in law is pregnant with twins? GIRLS! I am so freaking excited because whenever there is two, there is always one available to hold.

Well, as I see myself going more and more in different directions, I better end it for now.

Until Next Time...........

Current Happenings

Today I did my first body pump class. Needless to say I am SORE! Not as sore as I'm probably going to be tomorrow, but I could definitely feel it when I was washing my hair in the shower.

Did I love it? NO! I didn't hate it either though.  It all started in cycling class today.  My one instructor that I have on Mondays and Wednesdays always goes and she's been trying to get me to try it. So, today was the day.  In fact, I'm pretty sure everyone in cycle class decided to go together which made it way more fun for me :)

I do like the idea of body pump, but I can't say I'm sold yet.  The thing that wasn't my favorite was the fact I was pretty much just out there on my own.  I probably could have asked for help or gone closer to the front, but showcasing my shortcomings isn't my favorite thing to do. A few of my cycle peeps helped me out in the beginning, which was a huge help! When we were laying down I pretty much just had to do whatever the people next to me were doing, because I couldn't see the instructor and I'm not down with the lingo yet.  At least I could add in a few of my own breaks.

I'll go again, but probably only once a week.  On a side-note it was held in the room I used to do jazzercise with my mom many years ago.  It made me so happy to think of those memories and how ridiculous those dances were.

Cycling still holds my whole heart these days!  I'm currently obsessed with finding workout/cycling tank tops, however I can't bring myself to spend over $20 on one shirt.  Only 6 more months til my birthday, haha

What else, what else...We are heading up to Scranton this weekend for Disney on Ice! I took Emma last year and she LOVED it. I'm extremely excited to take her again and I think Matthew will like it too! It'll be nice to spend a long weekend up north and away from the everyday norms.

I just took Emma to see SING at the Movie Tavern.  I loved the movie and enjoyed the MT because we had plenty of room and she had a place to put her food and drink while we watched the movie instead of in her lap, which normally ends in a spill.

I'm hosting my first "event" for this MOM group I joined this week. I think it'll be fun and hopefully my children behave and share while they are in their own house. Most of the events are crafts for the kids....wanna know what mine is called?  COFFEE and PLAYTIME! HA! Crafts aren't my thing, but coffee I can do! Maybe I can think of something before Thursday. Here is my latest "craft" - it's called "let's wash coins"

 For the record, I did not think of this myself, I read about it. Turned into emma washing 1 quarter, then Matthew just dumped all the coins in the water and splashed around until they both just stood up and walked away soaked.

Well, Steelers are in the playoffs and just dominated the Dolphins for the Wildcard win, so I'm hoping this season continues on for a few more weeks!

Until Next time.........